Open letter.
It’s been a while. A long while of being with you, Eight months of ups and downs, of on and off. The amount of times that we shared together will never be even half of the times that you spend with others.The happiness that maybe somehow i brought to your life wouldn’t be even as happier as what you’ve had before. The amount of hugs and kisses that we had for the past eight months was not even enough for you to give us a try, but now, maybe this might be my last chance to let you know, that the amount of time that I spent with you is enough for me to say and to feel that I can trust you and that I wanted so bad to be with you. The amount of kisses every good morning wake ups, goodnights and even goodbyes are more than enough for me to say that those times were one of the sweetest times that I wanted to keep.
For some reason I don’t know why after all the downs, we still managed to be together and to see each other, and most especially to hang each other like this. I know that we both don’t talk so much about whatever is going on between us, it’s something that we always wanted to avoid, but then at the end of the day we still and will always end up with one question. Should we stay or should we just let go? Maybe the reason why we seldom talk about this, it’s because we’re both enjoying the time that we’re spending of being together and talking about this would just spoil the mood.
Eight months, seems long, we had been such a lot of things together, talk about random things, exchanged gifts and surprises, watched movies and series during nights, explore restaurants and foods during pay week, argue about non sense things. The feeling seems to be so right, seems to be so strong, like it will lead into something stable, but then again, it’s only one person who’s willing to give it a try and take the risk, while the other one is just trying to go with the flow, be safe and not be hurt in the end.
Having you around was one of the best things that I’m always looking forward everyday, and being beside you was the safest place I’ve ever been to. But then again, our feelings is not mutual. You’ve always been my everything while I just mean something for you.
We’ve been trying to end this thing up, for how many times, I forgot. If this would really be the last I wanna say thank you to you.Thank you for the feeling, for the memories. Thank you for spending eight months with me, of ups and downs. Thank you for always holding my hands, for always making me feel secured, for making me feel safe, for taking care of me. For always hugging me every night, for telling me to go on diet, for telling me and feeding me veggies, for giving me medicine whenever I’m sick.For the hugs and kisses every now and then, for making me feel loved, though I’m not.
And sorry for not being the person that you wanted to be with, for not being too smart. Sorry if can’t make you feel confident to give us a try. Sorry if I can’t take things anymore, for being fed up, of giving up to understand you, for not waiting until the time you are very much willing to commit. Sorry if you can’t feel the love that you’re looking for from me. Sorry if I can’t make you see yourself ending up with me. After all, I’m not one of your exes’.
And yeah, after how many times of saying this, I got tired, so I want this to be the last. Goodbye. I’m not gonna hope for us to see each other again. Nor even to be friends with you again. I hope that this Goodbye means really a Goodbye. That there will be no more turning back. I just hope that someday you will realize that there will always be that one person that will come into our lives, who is very much willing to give and give up everything for us, who will be willing to give things a try just to be with us. And for you, I hope that after us, you would still have the chance to find that someone. Cause no matter how many person who will come into your life, but if you’re not willing to be brave and give things a try, you will just always miss the chance to be really happy.
Worst feelings in the world…
Having a good night, and having it ruined with tears:
The feeling like you’re all alone, like you’re lost :
Having to look at the face of the person you love, knowing they won’t love you:
When someone tells you they don’t feel the same:
Crying so much you cry yourself to sleep:
The feeling of anger twards yourself:
The feeling of being forgot, unwanted, not good enough:
(Source: biiiiitches, via wowfunniestposts)
